"Save The Nite"

{Sing Vrs}

Mz.Daytime walker/
I can be ya, I can be ya midnite,bedroom stalker/
When it's my possession uma ball out/
& give it to ya til u scream my name out /
& know u hada.. long day..
Ya/
But can u put a little time away/
Yea/
If u do I promise uma make u say/
Yea,yea,yea,yea,yea,yea..
Cuz the night times my time girl/
& what I got'a have u runnin 2 ya girls/
U gone love da way I do it /
I put it down baby u know it's nothin IT/
I'll give u extra extra/
Uma shine when i grind when I sex ya
Jus give me a Lil time/
I'm hoping I can make ya body mine/

{ Hook }

Save the nite,
We can do what you like..
Girl uma getchu right!
Save the nite,for me.
Baby I just..
Just need one nite,wont you put it aside,
Uma do u body right..
Save the nite, For me..

{Rap Vrs}

Mz.Daytime Walker/
I never thought, these/
Eyes couldn't stop wanderin until they caught cha/
Now um tryna offer/
Or maybe it's a wager/
Try to peel me off ya/
Times all it cost ya/
Haha
Ya kinda busy in the daytime/
Well dats cool/
Reserve space handicap mine/
& when I get it beat it like it stole mines/
Ya body Fly-I-I-U hypnotize minds/
Haha
Or prolly jus da one I got/
Love it when u find time preferbly on da top /
& when we horiztal dats when I be on da clock /
Tick tick tock Til da clock stop/
& I enjoy every experience/
We can mix it up/
New shit,experiment/
Relax lay wit a brutha/
I promise u won't ever want anotha/

{ Bridge }

Save it/
Just a little/
I wanna lay u down no words,intrumental/
& I been waitin all day/
Tell me what do u say ?
Cuz the nite time/
Is my time/
& it's Damn sure the rite time/
So uma give u all I got/
We'll be makin love nonstop/

So baby jus save it !

{ Repeat Hook }

Freedom..

Hey World..I know its been a while but I'm back venting as usual. As U can see I've titled this entry "Freedom". I did this because currently I've been changing my lifestyle up alot. From Females to just normal habits. I really can say I feel more FREE then I ever have before ! I recently made a song Called "Back In My Bed" and I've been getting alot of feedback from it. The Song explains or tells a story about someone your NOT dating anymore but somehow they always end up BACK in ur life. Though its titled "Back in my BED" it doesnt necessarily mean sexually. Its just a metaphor for someone dealing with trying to let go but not being able to 100%, and that person they're trying to let go of keeps somehow slipping through the defenses and once again they get as CLOSE as possible back to you. I must say though I DO feel as if Im doing pretty well. I havent gave in recently and im just letting things take there course. I remember i used to almost run from girls when they wanted to get closer to me (relationship-wise) but i've realized that that was THEN while I had a significant other. Now, for me to run I cant help but to wonder ..."WHY?" ....Why would I try to exscape a friendship that could potentially leave me happy? So with that I've been acting almost out of character by being more OPEN..and FREE. No more getting to know someone and when I see they are starting to like me MORE I start disappearing..Im done with all that. I Had a girl that HAD the chance to stick to me..The present explains why she still doesnt remain...Man, I jus feel good about everything. Big Plans in 09' !

"Back In My Bed"

A thing of the past..
That's what she supposed to be.

Verbal agreements confirm our seperate identities.

The Love we had we accept the past tense,
But it seems like we thrive off the "Untitled" Suspense...

No Cuffs,
No Shackles,
No Bondage,

But she's BACK IN MY BED laying under where my arm is..

& when she falls asleep, sometimes I just lay there and stare at her..

Though I know this habit isn't healthy,
Nothing really seems to matter..

& as the morning comes we both wake up to reality,
We don't even kiss goodbye...

Back to our "Daytime Normality".

I guess with light we associate TRUTH,
Actor,
Actress,
The Nominees go to....

No Landslide victors,
Just me & you.

I digress,
And so do you..

But when it's recognized it goes right back to me and you..

Same place,Same time,Same things said..

Why can't I even pretend to get you out of my head ?

Will u ever forget me?

Enough said...

Until then we'll 360..

Back in my bed...

"Love Via Internet"

{{Verse 1}}

Hello hello I love it when u sign on/
Hear da door open up turn the me time on/
See ya name/ ( see ya name )
I get anxious/ ( anxious )
Exit her out,she ain't shit/
Tranferrr a picturre/
Comcast speed it up I missed HER/
Aol top news it should about me bout you/
Together we a 2 Live Crew/
& I love how she send me smileyz/
Turn da web cam on show me dat body/
Got alot buddies but dey not like me/
On da Internet,she like my wifey/
Neva met up she my cyber Luvv/
lipz on da screen cyber kiss cyber hug/
Don't sign off/
Don't leave me lonely/
wheneva forever she my Internet homie/

( HOOK )
We in love on the innernet/
{repeat innernets 7x's}
We in love on the innernet/
{repeat innernets 7x's}
She love me on the AIM/
Internet
She love me on da MYSPACE/
Internet
She love me on the FACEBOOK/
Innernet,innernet,innernet,innernet,innernet

( HOOK )

{{Verse 2}}

Ey u know who I be/
Icy Dont stop/
Fuck TOM I be #1 on er Top/
Life real Life/
Um all through ya wallz/
HTML codes dey like AWW/
Show me dat picture/
Witcha on da Sink/
Caption reads: Tell me what u think/
Well U already know/
Girl I love it/
A nigga wanna flirt/
I comment above it/
I own dat/
& u own me/men
Give me dat number,inbox me/
Putcha Page on private/
Haterz wanna see/
But dey can't / ( dey can't )
See it like me/
Green light flashin don't sign off/
Sexy wit da pix got dem spongebob draws/
Dat only make anticipate ya call
Whenever forever she be my Internet broad/

( HOOK )

Now um facebook'n/
Friends online/
In a relationship but she's But she all mines/
& he don't even know/
Nope don't blow it
Chattin on the IM so we don't show it/
She poke me/
I poke her azz back/
Please no pics if um tagged that's a wrap/
Pic Notify me when dat azz look da fatest/
nigga feel good when my name in ya status/
& um like /
Let me in ya network/
While um on the net/
Lemme see u make ya neck work/
Can u get wit dat or should I add HER 1st/
Profile pic bangin model wit da boyshortz/
Take a break/
Ha
My eyes kinda tired/
Lemme call u up so I hear what u desire/
.....
I guess I'll sign off in a minute/
Internet I be all up in it/

( HOOK )

"I Should Write Somethin'.."

Sitting here I keep thinking to myself,

I should write somethin'.

Soo many things in this world to scrutinize and form my own opinion on ,but yet I go blank..

I should write somethin'.

Should I speak ok my current relationship status & go on about how I just want that "One" special woman? How confused I get when I try to make decisions on who I should be with? Nahh..That would just sound like everyone else.Everybody knows that when ur single,u can say "um coo with it" but it gets old and unless ur comfortable being a HOE or contracting Herpes/Aids that pillow ain't gone squeeze u back at nite..

I should write somethin‘.

I could go in depth about how "Fly" I am or how no other nigga could compare to me like my shit don't stank BUT..How/why would I try to brag about how "Different" I am or how "THiS" I AM without sounding like EVERYONE else !? To be truly different it seems like I would have to actually be unaware of the difference between me & THEM..Too many people CHoOSe the type of different they wanna be and in reality,they just become very skilled at emulating a targeted persona they find delightful..

I should write somethin'.

Damn..Back to this female ish..Since I've been working,some of the females at my job have seemed to feel real comfortable around me.They talk to me about their problems and things going on with them. So far I've heard; "I ain't got a man..I'm gettin evicted,and I ain't got a man to run to for a place to stay..I need a baller..I wonder if this nigga gone get my kids some presents for Christmas..He pissed me off,uma go chill wit my otha man..."

I should write somethin'.

BUT..not without sayin "Those above quotes..Are HUGE in the problem department"

REWIND...

Now I know it's alot "Sasha Fierce akA I get my own without a nigga" type females that's prolly reading this and 2 Kudos go to YALL ! But truth is,ur sadly out numbered by ur fellow menstral havin',lazy azZ,female counterparts.. So do me a favor and try to help them sistaz out..

I should write somethin'.

NIGGAZ be bullshitin too..if not MorE cuz we add to this same Sorry ass genre population..But I'm a nigga myself so I won't go into detail..lol

Just to throw that out there..

I should prolly write somethin'.

Man..I ain't even gone lie..These are just random thoughts of mines.It seems like those are the only kind I have.I really do need to write somethin' though..



But I Aint got shit to say.

" #1 Fan "

Dear Ice,

How u doin? My name is Tiana.
This is kindve hard and I really don't wanna bother u but..
I got a couple of things that's on my mind..
I hope I don't sound stupid..
I'm kinds shy.
We'll here goes..see,umm I was just wondering if u got a girl or not?
See I don't wanna come off,
Like a regular jump-off but'a...
You be in my world ALOT !

(Let me explain)

This feelin in feelin ain't really myself
I MEAN
How um feelin I never felt for anyone else..
TRUE, I only seen u on MYSPACE n' all dat..
But I wish u were infront'a my face with all that !
Cuz in MY dreams,
IM THE GIRL In your dreams
& in my THOUGHTs,
Well..it's kindve the same thing..
So relax, you can sit back.RE-Read that.

Your BIGGEST fan Tiana,

Write Back....

"She said I'm down with everything U do..I like yo style I need somebody like U.
You got me WISHIN ..
I'M IN LOVE
& I won't stop until you love Me Too
Cuz I'm ya #1...Fan
I'm ya #1...Fan
I'm ya #1...Fan
I'm ya #1...Fan
I'M YOUR #1 !"

Hey Boo,
I send u that message a week ago.
Did you get it?
I know u got it boy QUIT playin wit it!
Nah,
I know your busy u'll reply when you find time..
Hey do it now I see ur finally logged online!
On ya page 12000 views! I listened to "Cakin" 100 times "Meee N'Youu!"
Me and u would look so cute in real life!
I cropped SOME bitch outta ya pictures now I'm YO wife!
I hope u don't like her cuz that'a be a problem
I'm a calculatin ass bitch cuz I can SOLVE em :-) !
Look,there's nothin in this world ya girl can't do.especially when it comes to loving you..Or better FUCKIN you
See baby, when I'm in the mood I play "Do it like that" & " Lay it Down" just for you !
Damn bayy u got me really REALLY feeling u..
P.s today ur outfit was TOO CUTE !

[[She said Im down with everything u do.I like yo style I need somebody like u.You got me Wishing.Im in love.And I won't rest until u love me to cuz um ya #1 Fan...
I'm ya #1....Fan
I'm ya #1....Fan
I'm ya #1....Fan
I'm ya #1 ]]

Hey Ice!
FUCK it nigga u got me aggetated!
I mean u act like u already made it!
Not returning my phone calls..
Yeah nigga DAT WAS ME!
Wait..that was my fault...
Unavailable I.D !
How stupid of me
But FUCK THAT.WE BACK ON U!
Creepin all behind MY back, Nigga I SEEN YOU !
How COULD YOU??!
I thought we had somethin More !
Man FUCK DAT REDBONE BITCH !
SHE'S JUST A FUCKIN WHORE!
What u see in her that u ain't seeing I CAN BE? Already CROPPED her now I gotta CHOP her like sliced meAt!
Is this wat u want?
I know where y'all live..
I should tAke a sample before I KILL u to have your kid!
I never wanted it to be this way..
I really wished that we could BOTH STAY..
So I could say "I DO"..
But I guess You DONT..
I already been loving you..
BUT I GUESS U WONT !!

G A M E - O V E R

[[ Repeat Hook ]]

IceRogerZp

"Extra-Terrestrial"

The infamous beginning line:

"So there's this girl right?"

Not just any girl, she's fine & when I say fine I mean FYyyne !
There's only one problem..

I'm attracted to her..

I know,I know..You don't understand..

But okay..Look..Its kindve hard to explain..See the thing Is...
She's from another planet..

A different galaxy or some shit..

Haha,She's NOTHING like ME or any other girl I've ever even glanced at!

She has these weird colored eyes;
She smells like nothing I've encountered;
(good though lol)
& the strangest thing is her language..
I can't seem to understand a word she says at times because HOW she says it Is almost too impeccable..

So I just sit back and smile when the complexity of her content is far too beyond my comprehension..

How could I be so strongly attracted to this STRANGER..?

She doesn't get her points across with her neck,hands,finger or eye motions..

Nah,

She seems to think things out before she speaks..

Weird...I know.

She's so different;

Her perfect idea of a partner isn't how much $$$ he has..
Nor his car or what he can GIVE her..
She's interested in how good they can compliment each other..
Love each other...

TELL me you seen a girl like this!!?

I didn't think so..

I guess I should figure out what to do..

How do I approach someone who's nothing like anybody? Will she understand me? Or will our differences be our downfall??

Wats the secret?

IceRogerZ

"Ol' Skoo" (80's Baby but the 90's Made Me)

"Ol'Skoo"

{{Verse}}

I miss dat Ol'Skoo swag/
Dem Ol'Skoo laughz/
Sneakin n stealin candy from dat Ol'Skoo stash/
Dem ol skoo fades alcohol the ZigZagz/
Man I wish tha clock would tock tick tock BACK/
Back then we wasn't worried bout the businessess/
My...Only concern was Sega Genisis/
Sonic 2
Street Fighter All Day Sonic Boom/
No fake friends jus Ken & Ryu/
!AlllYouuCannn!
Do...is worry bout recess/
I like u too/
I'm glad u checked yes/
Now it's time to progress I'm reportin wit no stress/
Hide-N-go-get-it with girls that was developin breast/
The best/
And when dem Jays came out,u got em brand new/
No combinations or replicas of the same shoe/
Man, recycable days just won't do/
Alumni so let me take u to my old skoo/

{{Hook}}

Gimmie Dat ol'skoo..
Dat Ol'Skoo..
(Maybe it don't sound like much 2 u)
But, this is my ol'skoo..
MY ol'skoo..
(remember the things we used 2 do?)
This is MY old skoo..
This is MY old skoo..
Do u remember?When we were kid?
This is my OLD SKOO...

"Head to the sky"

Mama mama mama can I call ya
Can I talk u for a second
dats all I
Need
M-a-r-y Lee
Never felt the pain that I seen
Ye ain't Neva had drama til u loss yo mama
Iont give a damn ain't nobody dat much stronger
Sister all crushed up
Brother all choked up
Tears runnin down my face got me all fucked up
Got me questioning lord like Y Would u harm her?
Why ain't u alarm her?
Why u put all this on us
Dats my superwoman
Naw my supermama
Yesh but she was strong how it break through all her armor?
I remember this
I remember that
How u luv this
How u hate that
Now um Layin back witcha picture in my hand like damn...

Keep yo head to the sky

Mama mama mama
I'm rememberin
Hard times they ain't know we was strugglin
To keep ya kids fresh
You stayed hustlin
And Neva put children aside for NE man
And not 1 woman nor neMan
Speak iLL in my presence I'll killem man
....And I put dat onya grave
And uma be feelin the same til Im layin n my grave
(Daz rite) nah u aint Been wat I been through
(Closed tight) I ain't got the spaces to vent through
(so I) channell my emotions unlike u
I don't let em fall let it leak through my pencil
....And that's all that I can do
Wishin I could reach
Wishin I could touch u
If I was in the car sittin next to u
I woulda closed my eyes n told u
(it's ok)

Keep to head to the sky

Ok um done cryin mama
Uma keep my chin up
I ain't even gone Botha
Uma hold my fam up
Uma be a man bout (Minez)
Jus how u taught me ya babyboys gone shine
And I'll be goddamn if I let em stop me
Stop me,Neva will they stop me
Uma do it then do it bigger all in yo memory
Feel me
The real me
No other idenity
Only wa knew id be everything u instilled in me
& I promise
To get my shit together
& I promise
Not to forget u never
& I promise
To keep by head on right n get paid get wateva I like
& I promise
To keep family on track
& I promise
Not to forget to lookback
& I promise
I promise uma tell em

Keep my head to the sky

The Day..(Ode To Hip-Hop)

&& No one knows....

How long I sat in the background

Practiced my perfect approach confident I am ready now..

Kinda nervous just to see her just to meet her,

Yea a couple niggaz her but um tryna keep er'
So I...

Recite my words,line for line,

Yea She heard it all before but she ain't neva heard mines !

In da cypher,everybody talk about her,
They jus like her,but me,um tryna wife her..

So repetition, adds to the addiction
The sweetest affliction a metronome tickin..

Get the pen in my hand n jus go.

Mind so Pacific uma, uma let it flow.

Uma fiend n I know.

Pick up da mic
And let it my shit amplify..

Hope every syllable gets lost in the sky

H. I. P. H. O. P.

I hope I neva see (Neva see,Neva See Neva see Neva see)



THE DAY SHE SAYS GOODBYE....

How high until sky?

How high until sky?

I must admit,maybe zoning out while drivin down i94hwy isn't the safest/brightest idea..
But during my "get away" I couldn't help but to notice the sky and how blue yet empty it was,
It was one of those days where u couldn't see a cloud for miles n miles..

I sit there,
(coasting still at 70mph)
Thinking how high the sky goes?
Going a little bit more in depth I begin to question "sky" entirely!

"How far until the simple (high) actually becomes SKY?"

Is it a tall building high?
Could it be just before the clouds?
Or is it only above the clouds ?

Tickled by my new random though,I smile because I know as soon as I ask a friend wat they thought I'd get that same ol'..."Pat wat the F***!?" I get ever so often I ask about the things I wonder..

Coming back to my question I realize maybe sky "isn't"..
Maybe sky isn't a label for a specific area of altitude like the stratusphere or something..

Maybe sky is just a measure of distance beyond ones knowledge of reality..

So desperate to be able to LABLE what
They can't explain,we come up with a universal answer good enough to keep everyone else from questioning..

Ha,

Either one should think the same or I'm crazy.

"Sky"

What's your theory?

Sent from my iPhone

Musiq & Rain..(The Constant Melody)

Sitting here,
Listening to "God Bless the Child" play through my speakers
Puting me at ease is a constant rhythm..
Saxophones,piano, & a low bass guitar steady consuming my thoughts and body as I lay across my bed.
I can't help but to think of you,
AS THE RAIN DROPS..

For so long I waited for someone to make me feel this way,
You know,
Butterflies,anxiously awaiting your call,hearing ur voice and Knowing ur smiling when I hear u respond..
I notice the simple things,
AS THE RAIN DROPZ

(LL Cool J's "I need love" begins to play)

R&B & thoughts of you may just be the sweetest combination..

Most men hide their emotions when it comes to showing how strongly they feel about a woman,
And don't get me wrong id like to join them also to save myself from vulnerabilty,
But with you I feel a sense of safeness allowing me to void out the foolish ego I may have
AS THE RAIN DROPZ

(LL still playing.....)

Hol up...I figure shit, I need love too !
So why not have YOU give it to me?
Its kind've funny how a simple connection between two people can change both's normalcy
Do things they usally wouldn't,
Say things they dare not to around anyone else
I ponder all of this..
AS THE RAIN DROPZ

(Xscape's "Who can I run to comes on)

"Who can I run to when I need Love"?
.."To fill this empty space..."

________________________________
Its a shame that one can have the potential to Love so strong,
But be so weak with holding on....
But still..
All this while,
THE RAIN DROPZ

(LSG's "My Body plays next)

Just as I think about easing up to you,
Of course this song comes on..
"My body all over your body babe"...
Can't help but to want to wander my hands around every inch of you,.
But your not here,
Better yet..
You dnt even exist...

So I just sit & wish..
AS THE RAIN DROPZ

Just One Night..

If I could ask you for anything,
It would be one night with you..

One night to give you everything you've EVER desired.

I'd Lay your body down and begin to memorize every molecule u possess,
Navigating with my tongue as my compass.

Then Slowly, I'd touch you in every place that I feel needs to be "especially" examined..

I could be your personal Doctor,
I'd whip up any potion and apply it to you to make you feel better..

I Can be your pesonal trainer and work your body until your dripping wet
Then go a little harder until you collapse..(ii hope you dont fire me for that))

Or I could be your Personal Diary,
OR You can just tell me things that you wouldnt tell a soul..
I wont be rude and judge you..
I'd Just listen...

On this One Night I could be your DopeBoy,
And give you all the extacy you need
I wanna get you higher than you've ever been before..
You can inject my love directly into your bloodstream causing you to quiver and shake uncontrollably
exposing you to combinations of the most beautiful sensations

Orgasmic rhythms are the only ones I tap my feet to.

Care To dance with me?

On this One Night I wanna take you everywhere you've never been

Destination 1: "Space"

We can bounce along the stardust
Drifting Slow..Or fast..It's all on you..
I wanna give you a "Cosmic Combustion"
So intense that you cant help but to see the *stars*..

I wanna take you to the highest point so you can remember me the next time (if any) where your capable of going..
Only with me can u visit this wonderous place..

In Just One Night...

I'd like to set you free from all your worries outside this room..
Everything that brings you away from happines
Everything that puts your smiles on hold

Everything that makes you happy....Can I Be?

Let me ask you a question..

Can I have THIS "One Night" For You & Me?

Scars

I have these scars...

Though these scars dont appear on my outside pysical, they are there.
I can feel them.

I didnt get them from falling.
I didnt get them from fist-fights.
I didnt get them from any accident.

I got them from taking blows from a Love I once had.
Once upon a time I had a love that I beileved to be everlasting.
I truly believed that the person I valued so much and would do anything for would one day carry my name as hers.

I had a special kind of love.

At the time filled with laughter & overflowing with oppurtunity.

Then something changed.

Ultimately it was GOD's will for this change to occur.
But I didnt understand it.

S L O W L Y things started to crumble right infront of my eyes..
At first I was ignorant to the fact that what I was trying to build, was not meant to be built.
I was following A "Blue Print" towards the creation of something that was impossible to create.

& thats when I started to feel them...

I started to feel my body ache,
I started to feel cutz deep inside of me,
I started to feel ugly in the depths of myself.
I started to feel ashamed of my concealed appearance .

I felt like everyone was staring at me when I presented myself in public.
Feeling as if they were able to see my hideous scars that I tried my BEST to hide.

Faced with mixed emotions of ANGER, Bitterness, & FRUSTRATION I tried to live my life with my EGO leading the way,
Only to end up re-exposing my scars once I am ALONE.

Something had to give...

I listen to the wise one's and they tell me to lean on Christ because through him anythings possible,
But I cant help but to ask him did he not see what I had planned for HER?
Did he not see that the hand she possesses is the ONLY one I ever wanted?

Selfishness.

Who am I to raise such ?questions?

So I'm back to square one.

Searching and searching for "Band-Aids" but they keep falling off.
For a while I burn my wounds with ALCOHOL but when it wears off I regain feeling & still they are there.

I just need relief..

I just need confidence..

I now live a life based off my belief that "Prevention is BETTER than a CURE".
Not only have I learned of what more I can do,
But I've learned of the things I need NOT to.

And with that I begin my process.
I no longer feel my scars who'm I've become accustomed to living with,
nor do I feel uncomfortable with how I am perceived.

But most importantly I hold tight to "Never forget what is worth remebering, nor even remember what is BEST forgotten."

Finally, to you and whoever..

I Introduce you to ME.

Proud of what I've been through and the story these scars tell..
For I am ready for the FUTURE.

"Untitled"

We greet each other with phoney smiles and bogus hugs.

In public we ask each others questions that we both know the answers to.

"How Are you"?
"How have things been going"?

We reply with meaningless answers that we could actually care LESS about..

Only We know the truth..

We hide our matching identities by talking breifly and covering up what we share inside.

Getting too comfortable would easily reveal our secret..

Too much of this to long will kill me.

When in a room full of people we every now and then glance towards the others direction hoping, wishing to catch a glimpse of each other,
Look at me looking at you..

We understand.

Without saying a thing.

Sometimes I question if we should keep ourselves hidden or release one another from this inprisonment of feelings..

If so the only way to do so is to let go..

A task I know i'm not capable of accomplishing...

Are you?

No one knows how I feel once you walk in the room
No one knows how only we can make each other smile without words
No one knows the tight hold we have on on another..
No one knows IF i've even touched you..

We are both in two different worlds which neither one of us can fit in comfortably.
Sometimes I'd like to create one with you and see what would really happen..

But right NOW that cant happen..

To simplify our relationship by labeling you us as "Just Friends" would be preposterous!

Yet We arent truly MORE...........

So I'll continue to sit here watchin you pass me from time to time.
Waiting for you to look back after u walk by.
KNOWING you will...
Always aknowledging what we have..
&& just as strongly what we DONT..

All of this leaving me with A MILLION lingering questions..

What can you call an US that isnt????

Her

I have somone special.

I talk to her on a regular basis and "she" comforts me in my times of need,
She is understanding and cares about how I feel towards everything.
She iz NOT perfect.
Infact she is far from such word.
But she is Miines.
Like every STRONG relationship, we disagree.
But NEVER has she been willing to let me go.
& never have I been capable to even really attempt 2 let her go.
That's why she still remains.
Through the adversity now or ahead,
I know "She" will be there to see me on the otherside.

"She" will wait for me.

Such strong feeling I have for her.

I want her to pass onto my children the strength and knowledge her mother passed onto her.
Though I don't kno much,
I want HER to teach my children about GOD and hiz imporatance in our lives.
Teach US together.
I want her to allow US to grow. Together.
"She" knows when I'm angry.
"She" knows exactly what to do.
"She" allows me to please her in ways that no other will ever have the chance to.
"She" appreciates the effort I put fourth to make her happy.
I appreciate HER.
"She" will NEVER let me go.
Even when I tell her I want to leave She KNOWS im coming right back,
I know Im coming right back.
She KNOWS im sarcastic,
She KNOWS I act as if I don't care at times
She knows ALL of my flaws.

Yet she STILL remains.

Everything she desires, I desire MORE to make them attainable.
"She" must have everything.
"She" must smile...
I must make her.....

Yet she iz anonymous.
"She" isn't.
"She" is someone I've secretly created while in search or "HER".
I don't really know if I will even meet her.
But strangley im still keeping my eyes open for her?