Here it is..
December 26th,2008.

I was gonna try to just take this Christmas and get used to it without getting emotional but truth remains that it was entirely too different..

Being without you is the hardest thing in the world right now.
I wake up everyday with your face imprinted in my mind.
& to wake up on that special day knowing I couldnt call you or just hug you was unbearable..

Everyone I know was with their families and waiting on food to be prepared by their moms when I sat around there wishing I could just SEE you .

I heard some of my friends complain about not getting anything but it just doesn't add up to me. The greatest gift in the world would be for you to just BE.

Here. With me .

It's so crazy cause I can't help but think of how happy you made us when Christmas came..No matter if u had it or not u made all of our wishes come true because you did whatever it took to put smiles on our faces..Thinking back, those were the real miracles.Lord knows we weren't ballin but u couldn't tell that to the outsiders lookin in..

Mama, I don't wanna make people feel sorry for me.
I just wanna be able to live my life without u the way you would want me too but I just don't know how..Everytime I look in the mirror,everytime I hear music,everytime I laugh I just see YOU..

I know your lookin down on me or whatever y'all do up there..

Jus be patient with me Mama...

Merry Christmas mom.

I Love you forever.

IceRogerZ

Dec.19th 2008

So here it is..
Friday Dec.19th 2:03pm
___________________________
I woke up today 1st to see the 10 inches of snow fall
Plus my car is snowed in and I'm supposed to be at work at 4pm..But still,alot of things are on my mind.
Laz nite she called me asking "have I thought about us lately"?
We got into that but I feel like it's kindve a lose lose situation
She says she's confused but can't tell me exactly what she's confused about..
I'm tired of guessing..
She stresses "I'm leaving" a lot..
Wow déjà vu...
I seem to only here that from females..
Hmmm
_________________
My musiq is coming along great,
I Laid down a hook with a local artist "J-Jack"
That's gonna be called "Its nothin to a BOSS"
Hot shit.
Also YoungHeat found this sample I KNOW he's gonna make into a banger.I think I wanna sing on this track && RAP .
{ask ya favorite rapper to do that}
___________________________
Writing this I'm at my crib with the cover on my feet,
Warm as hell listening to MusiqSoulchild's new album..
Dredding this clock that I know will strike 4 soon.
_______________________________________
I might update tonight with some lyrics or song related material,

Til the ink runZ dry,

x______________iiRz

IceRogerZ

The UPDATE

Hey wassup WORLD? Its ya 1 & only IceRogerZ comin' through..Just wanna let you guys in on wats going on with me..I know I've been using this just for writing songs and a couple of random poetry/thoughts that come across my mind, but NOW im here to let u know i will be blogging as much as I can now.I just bought my own URL for this site though goDaddy.com so now to get here all u have to type is "www.icerogerz.com" ! Propz to Blk City & SpaceShip ! haha anyways, Just hit me up ! I got contacts EVERYWHERE!

Myspace:myspace.com/mymusiq06
AIM:iceman0632
FACEBOOK: "Ice Rogerz"

I mean just get at me for QUESTIONS or COMMENTS about anything I Put up!

I wanna get some videos on here of me and my up & coming projects as well!

ps.My Life is CRAZY..So u should be really entertained by it All !

Enjoy!

"I Should Write Somethin'.."

Sitting here I keep thinking to myself,

I should write somethin'.

Soo many things in this world to scrutinize and form my own opinion on ,but yet I go blank..

I should write somethin'.

Should I speak ok my current relationship status & go on about how I just want that "One" special woman? How confused I get when I try to make decisions on who I should be with? Nahh..That would just sound like everyone else.Everybody knows that when ur single,u can say "um coo with it" but it gets old and unless ur comfortable being a HOE or contracting Herpes/Aids that pillow ain't gone squeeze u back at nite..

I should write somethin‘.

I could go in depth about how "Fly" I am or how no other nigga could compare to me like my shit don't stank BUT..How/why would I try to brag about how "Different" I am or how "THiS" I AM without sounding like EVERYONE else !? To be truly different it seems like I would have to actually be unaware of the difference between me & THEM..Too many people CHoOSe the type of different they wanna be and in reality,they just become very skilled at emulating a targeted persona they find delightful..

I should write somethin'.

Damn..Back to this female ish..Since I've been working,some of the females at my job have seemed to feel real comfortable around me.They talk to me about their problems and things going on with them. So far I've heard; "I ain't got a man..I'm gettin evicted,and I ain't got a man to run to for a place to stay..I need a baller..I wonder if this nigga gone get my kids some presents for Christmas..He pissed me off,uma go chill wit my otha man..."

I should write somethin'.

BUT..not without sayin "Those above quotes..Are HUGE in the problem department"

REWIND...

Now I know it's alot "Sasha Fierce akA I get my own without a nigga" type females that's prolly reading this and 2 Kudos go to YALL ! But truth is,ur sadly out numbered by ur fellow menstral havin',lazy azZ,female counterparts.. So do me a favor and try to help them sistaz out..

I should write somethin'.

NIGGAZ be bullshitin too..if not MorE cuz we add to this same Sorry ass genre population..But I'm a nigga myself so I won't go into detail..lol

Just to throw that out there..

I should prolly write somethin'.

Man..I ain't even gone lie..These are just random thoughts of mines.It seems like those are the only kind I have.I really do need to write somethin' though..



But I Aint got shit to say.

" #1 Fan "

Dear Ice,

How u doin? My name is Tiana.
This is kindve hard and I really don't wanna bother u but..
I got a couple of things that's on my mind..
I hope I don't sound stupid..
I'm kinds shy.
We'll here goes..see,umm I was just wondering if u got a girl or not?
See I don't wanna come off,
Like a regular jump-off but'a...
You be in my world ALOT !

(Let me explain)

This feelin in feelin ain't really myself
I MEAN
How um feelin I never felt for anyone else..
TRUE, I only seen u on MYSPACE n' all dat..
But I wish u were infront'a my face with all that !
Cuz in MY dreams,
IM THE GIRL In your dreams
& in my THOUGHTs,
Well..it's kindve the same thing..
So relax, you can sit back.RE-Read that.

Your BIGGEST fan Tiana,

Write Back....

"She said I'm down with everything U do..I like yo style I need somebody like U.
You got me WISHIN ..
I'M IN LOVE
& I won't stop until you love Me Too
Cuz I'm ya #1...Fan
I'm ya #1...Fan
I'm ya #1...Fan
I'm ya #1...Fan
I'M YOUR #1 !"

Hey Boo,
I send u that message a week ago.
Did you get it?
I know u got it boy QUIT playin wit it!
Nah,
I know your busy u'll reply when you find time..
Hey do it now I see ur finally logged online!
On ya page 12000 views! I listened to "Cakin" 100 times "Meee N'Youu!"
Me and u would look so cute in real life!
I cropped SOME bitch outta ya pictures now I'm YO wife!
I hope u don't like her cuz that'a be a problem
I'm a calculatin ass bitch cuz I can SOLVE em :-) !
Look,there's nothin in this world ya girl can't do.especially when it comes to loving you..Or better FUCKIN you
See baby, when I'm in the mood I play "Do it like that" & " Lay it Down" just for you !
Damn bayy u got me really REALLY feeling u..
P.s today ur outfit was TOO CUTE !

[[She said Im down with everything u do.I like yo style I need somebody like u.You got me Wishing.Im in love.And I won't rest until u love me to cuz um ya #1 Fan...
I'm ya #1....Fan
I'm ya #1....Fan
I'm ya #1....Fan
I'm ya #1 ]]

Hey Ice!
FUCK it nigga u got me aggetated!
I mean u act like u already made it!
Not returning my phone calls..
Yeah nigga DAT WAS ME!
Wait..that was my fault...
Unavailable I.D !
How stupid of me
But FUCK THAT.WE BACK ON U!
Creepin all behind MY back, Nigga I SEEN YOU !
How COULD YOU??!
I thought we had somethin More !
Man FUCK DAT REDBONE BITCH !
SHE'S JUST A FUCKIN WHORE!
What u see in her that u ain't seeing I CAN BE? Already CROPPED her now I gotta CHOP her like sliced meAt!
Is this wat u want?
I know where y'all live..
I should tAke a sample before I KILL u to have your kid!
I never wanted it to be this way..
I really wished that we could BOTH STAY..
So I could say "I DO"..
But I guess You DONT..
I already been loving you..
BUT I GUESS U WONT !!

G A M E - O V E R

[[ Repeat Hook ]]

IceRogerZp

"Extra-Terrestrial"

The infamous beginning line:

"So there's this girl right?"

Not just any girl, she's fine & when I say fine I mean FYyyne !
There's only one problem..

I'm attracted to her..

I know,I know..You don't understand..

But okay..Look..Its kindve hard to explain..See the thing Is...
She's from another planet..

A different galaxy or some shit..

Haha,She's NOTHING like ME or any other girl I've ever even glanced at!

She has these weird colored eyes;
She smells like nothing I've encountered;
(good though lol)
& the strangest thing is her language..
I can't seem to understand a word she says at times because HOW she says it Is almost too impeccable..

So I just sit back and smile when the complexity of her content is far too beyond my comprehension..

How could I be so strongly attracted to this STRANGER..?

She doesn't get her points across with her neck,hands,finger or eye motions..

Nah,

She seems to think things out before she speaks..

Weird...I know.

She's so different;

Her perfect idea of a partner isn't how much $$$ he has..
Nor his car or what he can GIVE her..
She's interested in how good they can compliment each other..
Love each other...

TELL me you seen a girl like this!!?

I didn't think so..

I guess I should figure out what to do..

How do I approach someone who's nothing like anybody? Will she understand me? Or will our differences be our downfall??

Wats the secret?

IceRogerZ

"Ol' Skoo" (80's Baby but the 90's Made Me)

"Ol'Skoo"

{{Verse}}

I miss dat Ol'Skoo swag/
Dem Ol'Skoo laughz/
Sneakin n stealin candy from dat Ol'Skoo stash/
Dem ol skoo fades alcohol the ZigZagz/
Man I wish tha clock would tock tick tock BACK/
Back then we wasn't worried bout the businessess/
My...Only concern was Sega Genisis/
Sonic 2
Street Fighter All Day Sonic Boom/
No fake friends jus Ken & Ryu/
!AlllYouuCannn!
Do...is worry bout recess/
I like u too/
I'm glad u checked yes/
Now it's time to progress I'm reportin wit no stress/
Hide-N-go-get-it with girls that was developin breast/
The best/
And when dem Jays came out,u got em brand new/
No combinations or replicas of the same shoe/
Man, recycable days just won't do/
Alumni so let me take u to my old skoo/

{{Hook}}

Gimmie Dat ol'skoo..
Dat Ol'Skoo..
(Maybe it don't sound like much 2 u)
But, this is my ol'skoo..
MY ol'skoo..
(remember the things we used 2 do?)
This is MY old skoo..
This is MY old skoo..
Do u remember?When we were kid?
This is my OLD SKOO...

"Head to the sky"

Mama mama mama can I call ya
Can I talk u for a second
dats all I
Need
M-a-r-y Lee
Never felt the pain that I seen
Ye ain't Neva had drama til u loss yo mama
Iont give a damn ain't nobody dat much stronger
Sister all crushed up
Brother all choked up
Tears runnin down my face got me all fucked up
Got me questioning lord like Y Would u harm her?
Why ain't u alarm her?
Why u put all this on us
Dats my superwoman
Naw my supermama
Yesh but she was strong how it break through all her armor?
I remember this
I remember that
How u luv this
How u hate that
Now um Layin back witcha picture in my hand like damn...

Keep yo head to the sky

Mama mama mama
I'm rememberin
Hard times they ain't know we was strugglin
To keep ya kids fresh
You stayed hustlin
And Neva put children aside for NE man
And not 1 woman nor neMan
Speak iLL in my presence I'll killem man
....And I put dat onya grave
And uma be feelin the same til Im layin n my grave
(Daz rite) nah u aint Been wat I been through
(Closed tight) I ain't got the spaces to vent through
(so I) channell my emotions unlike u
I don't let em fall let it leak through my pencil
....And that's all that I can do
Wishin I could reach
Wishin I could touch u
If I was in the car sittin next to u
I woulda closed my eyes n told u
(it's ok)

Keep to head to the sky

Ok um done cryin mama
Uma keep my chin up
I ain't even gone Botha
Uma hold my fam up
Uma be a man bout (Minez)
Jus how u taught me ya babyboys gone shine
And I'll be goddamn if I let em stop me
Stop me,Neva will they stop me
Uma do it then do it bigger all in yo memory
Feel me
The real me
No other idenity
Only wa knew id be everything u instilled in me
& I promise
To get my shit together
& I promise
Not to forget u never
& I promise
To keep by head on right n get paid get wateva I like
& I promise
To keep family on track
& I promise
Not to forget to lookback
& I promise
I promise uma tell em

Keep my head to the sky

The Day..(Ode To Hip-Hop)

&& No one knows....

How long I sat in the background

Practiced my perfect approach confident I am ready now..

Kinda nervous just to see her just to meet her,

Yea a couple niggaz her but um tryna keep er'
So I...

Recite my words,line for line,

Yea She heard it all before but she ain't neva heard mines !

In da cypher,everybody talk about her,
They jus like her,but me,um tryna wife her..

So repetition, adds to the addiction
The sweetest affliction a metronome tickin..

Get the pen in my hand n jus go.

Mind so Pacific uma, uma let it flow.

Uma fiend n I know.

Pick up da mic
And let it my shit amplify..

Hope every syllable gets lost in the sky

H. I. P. H. O. P.

I hope I neva see (Neva see,Neva See Neva see Neva see)



THE DAY SHE SAYS GOODBYE....

Mami You Aint Wifey..

Attention all ladies!

I got a couple things on my mind I gotta release,
Pay attention and take notes
Read this.Pass it around please,

Now u say u want man handlin his..No kids,
No Ex-convict,drug dealin,"baby lemme hold something..I'll pay back wit dis d***!

Sights stuck on a nigga u fail to put ur self in position to see!?
Well let's separate the "temporary entertainment" from the oh so rare WIFEY..

Mami u ain't wifey if: when u suddenly need something from the mall,to get it u call dat bum nigga u know who'd bust a nut just from seein yo name pop up on his fone give u the money his lazy ass makes from the block jus so u can go get dem jay'z errbody gone have next week..

Mami u aint wifey if: You have ever felt in ur heart u wanted a baby "because everybody else has one"..

Mami u ain't wifey if: Your the type of female who says, "heyy girl wassup ? How u been!? Call me girl!" & then talk shit like "I can't stand her ass..she a hoe.She fake.." AFTER she walks AWAY..

Mami u ain't wifey if: You really believe yo WHOLE crew look good..(especially if it's more than 3 of y'all) lol one of them "bad bitches" LITERALLY looks BAD !

Mami u ain't wifey if: Yo azz can't cook ! (No.noodles,burgers,macaroni, & anything of that nature doesn't count!)

**Mami u ain't wifey if: Yo shoes are dirty......EVER...ughhhhh!**

Mami u ain't wifey if: U smoke or drink more than yo nigga..hol up,nah if u do either excessively ! NOT sexy!

Mami u ain't wifey if: Yo hair ain't NEVA done !! Fuck a pony tail ladies..puhleeze !

Mami u ain't wifey if: You rock multiple colors in yo damn hair! (streaks of neutral colors that coordinate is coo..but blue,red,purple?? C'mon u damn snow cone!

Mami u ain't wifey if: U tell yo girls, "mmmhm girl I got a good one ! He ain't been to jail,he aint got no babymama,he got a job, & he can read ! Lol seriously, wat ARE ur standards!?

Mami u ain't wifey if: U can't put it on yo nigga so good you ain't worried bout him cheatin..( I understand some niggaz is jus dumb doe..But u shoulda knew dat!)

Mami u ain't wifey if: someone asked u, "how many people have u had sex with?" and the 1st thing ur eyes do is look up like u countin ceiling tiles...lol

Mami u ain't wifey if: You think everybody uses big ass words..Nah your just dumb.

I mean I really shouldn't have to elaborate much more.These just a few of the traits that exempt u from being the true definition of "Wifey"..I've seen this term used many occasions, but only few really qualify...

This is just my angle..
Just an opinion..

But if u agree...where do u stand ladies?!

How high until sky?

How high until sky?

I must admit,maybe zoning out while drivin down i94hwy isn't the safest/brightest idea..
But during my "get away" I couldn't help but to notice the sky and how blue yet empty it was,
It was one of those days where u couldn't see a cloud for miles n miles..

I sit there,
(coasting still at 70mph)
Thinking how high the sky goes?
Going a little bit more in depth I begin to question "sky" entirely!

"How far until the simple (high) actually becomes SKY?"

Is it a tall building high?
Could it be just before the clouds?
Or is it only above the clouds ?

Tickled by my new random though,I smile because I know as soon as I ask a friend wat they thought I'd get that same ol'..."Pat wat the F***!?" I get ever so often I ask about the things I wonder..

Coming back to my question I realize maybe sky "isn't"..
Maybe sky isn't a label for a specific area of altitude like the stratusphere or something..

Maybe sky is just a measure of distance beyond ones knowledge of reality..

So desperate to be able to LABLE what
They can't explain,we come up with a universal answer good enough to keep everyone else from questioning..

Ha,

Either one should think the same or I'm crazy.

"Sky"

What's your theory?

Sent from my iPhone

Musiq & Rain..(The Constant Melody)

Sitting here,
Listening to "God Bless the Child" play through my speakers
Puting me at ease is a constant rhythm..
Saxophones,piano, & a low bass guitar steady consuming my thoughts and body as I lay across my bed.
I can't help but to think of you,
AS THE RAIN DROPS..

For so long I waited for someone to make me feel this way,
You know,
Butterflies,anxiously awaiting your call,hearing ur voice and Knowing ur smiling when I hear u respond..
I notice the simple things,
AS THE RAIN DROPZ

(LL Cool J's "I need love" begins to play)

R&B & thoughts of you may just be the sweetest combination..

Most men hide their emotions when it comes to showing how strongly they feel about a woman,
And don't get me wrong id like to join them also to save myself from vulnerabilty,
But with you I feel a sense of safeness allowing me to void out the foolish ego I may have
AS THE RAIN DROPZ

(LL still playing.....)

Hol up...I figure shit, I need love too !
So why not have YOU give it to me?
Its kind've funny how a simple connection between two people can change both's normalcy
Do things they usally wouldn't,
Say things they dare not to around anyone else
I ponder all of this..
AS THE RAIN DROPZ

(Xscape's "Who can I run to comes on)

"Who can I run to when I need Love"?
.."To fill this empty space..."

________________________________
Its a shame that one can have the potential to Love so strong,
But be so weak with holding on....
But still..
All this while,
THE RAIN DROPZ

(LSG's "My Body plays next)

Just as I think about easing up to you,
Of course this song comes on..
"My body all over your body babe"...
Can't help but to want to wander my hands around every inch of you,.
But your not here,
Better yet..
You dnt even exist...

So I just sit & wish..
AS THE RAIN DROPZ

Something Special

I remember..

I was at the football game,
Shoulda been following score by score
But you know us boyz,
Instead of jumping up in down when our team scored a touchdown
We gave high fives when we agreed on who was the finest cheerleader

Looking down the line I notice all the old girls im used 2 seeing
And then I see you..

Caremel skin,french braids with designs,the cutest smile.
Also I remember you most because of the funny way ur ears curled a little more than normal..

But none the less very cute..

I stare for a moment because I've never seen you before
"She's probably just a lil freshman"..

And of course you were...

I remember getting on my bus after school and seeing u there..
Looking all goofy & smiling with ur easy going brown eyes.
I knew who you knew,talked to who you talk to, But we've never spoken...?

We sat together and chatted until my stop.

With no clue of how important ud become to me, we continued to get to know each other little by little..

Next thing u know im the 1st boy to be welcome in ur home that's NOT related to anyone there.
Your mom was strick but she liked me from day 1.

We become the best of friends..
Talking about any and everything.
Able to be myself around you 100%
You never judged me
You never negativley critqued me
You only stood by me through watever I was going through.

Throughout relationships between our girlfriends & boyfriends we never worried because we both knew that it didn't matter who was "current" in our lives because neither one of us would leave..

You've watched me grow from a backpack carrying,afro wit the pick stuck in it,jersey wearing little BOY
Into wat I must say a decent young MAN..

Un the flipside I must admit,you've blossomed into a more beautifu WOMAN than I really expected..
I tried to protect you by giving you all the knowledge I had but some things u have 2 learn on ur own..
Guys took advantage of you
And used ur kindness for weakness..

But I always thought they were absolutley INSANE to not be able to see the incredible person you are..
U'd give before you receive and help before your even spoken to..

Sometimes I do wonder..
& also I wonder do you (still)
But only time will tell.
Anyone who gets you will be one of the luckier guys
And no matter who it is,
I'll always be there when u need me

More than just a friend,
Ur like my other half..

I love you..

The New Blog

Its been a while since I've blogged..
So many things to write about..
So many feeling needed to be unleashed.
Sometimes I feel like I need to be more of a man.
Sometimes I feel like I need to make major adjustments for the future.
I am fortunate to have a father who cares as much as he does.
And a supporting family as well..
But sometimes I feel like im the "last chance"...
Like im the last chance that WE can make some money.
Stress.
Pressure.
What if i fail?
What if I become nothing more than the average?
What will I..wat will WE do?
Im smart.But not as smart as my mother will brag about.
I know my flaws..and weaknesses..
Im not as smart as people think.
I just have more common sense than the average person.
More self control..
So I guess that sets me apart.
Life seems to go by so quick.
Only allowing u to learn AFTER shit hits the fan..not before or During.
Which is a sad story....

Its time to get the ball rollin..

Truth: In It's ILLEST Form..(Somtimes)

Sometimes I dont want to be here.

Sometimes I think of things I should'nt.

At times I just wanna escape to a different place where my existence never took place..

To most I live a life of joy and laughter.
TRUTHFULLY, its just a cover up..

I smile to bring forth other smiles.
?Sadly? But unselfishly I'd rather see another smile before myself.

Sometimes I feel abandoned.

The most important people seem to disappoint me the most.
While strangers constantly try to impair my happiness I seem not to budge nor notice..
But when a supposed to be"stationary" one steps one foot to the slightest amount out of position,
a bright light glares so hard it burns my eyes

Unable to understand reasoning, I cant help but to want to break down inside.

At times it seems like friends arent what they are labeled to be.
Deception and unloyal traits are starting to show.
True colors are slowly but surely making themselves vividly apparent.
Envy from the one's around me makes me question how we got this far in the 1st place..?

Sometimes...

Sometimes I feel like the one person who's job was to prepare me for things all of a sudden gave up..
Sometimes I feel like the one person who said they wanted to love me just decided to one day leave me.

Emptiness without a path to follow I STILL continue.

Seeking out a higher power in order to fulfill some calling that I feel buried deep inside of me I give up everything I have.
I give up trying to find an answer and just begin to deal with my problems the best I can.
Hoping that at the perfect time, a break-through will occur.

I've never in my life been suicidal
But just more less thoughtful about if my space I've taken up has been appreciated..
Do people truly care?
Or do they just pretend to?

Only time will tell...

Until then I can only live off a reality that tells me to keep pushing.

This is only the Truth..This is only my beginning...

Just One Night..

If I could ask you for anything,
It would be one night with you..

One night to give you everything you've EVER desired.

I'd Lay your body down and begin to memorize every molecule u possess,
Navigating with my tongue as my compass.

Then Slowly, I'd touch you in every place that I feel needs to be "especially" examined..

I could be your personal Doctor,
I'd whip up any potion and apply it to you to make you feel better..

I Can be your pesonal trainer and work your body until your dripping wet
Then go a little harder until you collapse..(ii hope you dont fire me for that))

Or I could be your Personal Diary,
OR You can just tell me things that you wouldnt tell a soul..
I wont be rude and judge you..
I'd Just listen...

On this One Night I could be your DopeBoy,
And give you all the extacy you need
I wanna get you higher than you've ever been before..
You can inject my love directly into your bloodstream causing you to quiver and shake uncontrollably
exposing you to combinations of the most beautiful sensations

Orgasmic rhythms are the only ones I tap my feet to.

Care To dance with me?

On this One Night I wanna take you everywhere you've never been

Destination 1: "Space"

We can bounce along the stardust
Drifting Slow..Or fast..It's all on you..
I wanna give you a "Cosmic Combustion"
So intense that you cant help but to see the *stars*..

I wanna take you to the highest point so you can remember me the next time (if any) where your capable of going..
Only with me can u visit this wonderous place..

In Just One Night...

I'd like to set you free from all your worries outside this room..
Everything that brings you away from happines
Everything that puts your smiles on hold

Everything that makes you happy....Can I Be?

Let me ask you a question..

Can I have THIS "One Night" For You & Me?

Mr.Know-It-All

1st off it goes like this.

I know things.

I know things that you may not even be aware of.

I know about things I havent learned about yet because I could probably figure it out if I ever encountered such subject/topic.

Sometimes (all the time) I feel like its almost impossible for me to be wrong.

How can I be WRONG if your Never right?

How would YOU know if you finally possessed the CORRECT answer for this/that specific question?

I base things off probabilty..

The probabilty of you debating with me and proving me WRONG is substancially LOW.
In all honesty you'd be better off trying to stop a freight train with your Head.

ii Know, iiKnow..
This guy'z one of those...

No.

because "THOSE" would'nt stand a chance in finding TRUTH over me.
Trust me I know where the TRUTH usually likes to hide..
So they'd look like "YALL".

I've been told that people can be wrong,
and this is true.
I COULD be, But so far I've been pretty satisfied with the outcomes of alot of arguments and debates.

Ok, i'll let you in a little secret.
I've only been DEADnWRONG about ONE thing....

.....


C'mon now do you think I'd actually Tell you what it iz though!?

Scars

I have these scars...

Though these scars dont appear on my outside pysical, they are there.
I can feel them.

I didnt get them from falling.
I didnt get them from fist-fights.
I didnt get them from any accident.

I got them from taking blows from a Love I once had.
Once upon a time I had a love that I beileved to be everlasting.
I truly believed that the person I valued so much and would do anything for would one day carry my name as hers.

I had a special kind of love.

At the time filled with laughter & overflowing with oppurtunity.

Then something changed.

Ultimately it was GOD's will for this change to occur.
But I didnt understand it.

S L O W L Y things started to crumble right infront of my eyes..
At first I was ignorant to the fact that what I was trying to build, was not meant to be built.
I was following A "Blue Print" towards the creation of something that was impossible to create.

& thats when I started to feel them...

I started to feel my body ache,
I started to feel cutz deep inside of me,
I started to feel ugly in the depths of myself.
I started to feel ashamed of my concealed appearance .

I felt like everyone was staring at me when I presented myself in public.
Feeling as if they were able to see my hideous scars that I tried my BEST to hide.

Faced with mixed emotions of ANGER, Bitterness, & FRUSTRATION I tried to live my life with my EGO leading the way,
Only to end up re-exposing my scars once I am ALONE.

Something had to give...

I listen to the wise one's and they tell me to lean on Christ because through him anythings possible,
But I cant help but to ask him did he not see what I had planned for HER?
Did he not see that the hand she possesses is the ONLY one I ever wanted?

Selfishness.

Who am I to raise such ?questions?

So I'm back to square one.

Searching and searching for "Band-Aids" but they keep falling off.
For a while I burn my wounds with ALCOHOL but when it wears off I regain feeling & still they are there.

I just need relief..

I just need confidence..

I now live a life based off my belief that "Prevention is BETTER than a CURE".
Not only have I learned of what more I can do,
But I've learned of the things I need NOT to.

And with that I begin my process.
I no longer feel my scars who'm I've become accustomed to living with,
nor do I feel uncomfortable with how I am perceived.

But most importantly I hold tight to "Never forget what is worth remebering, nor even remember what is BEST forgotten."

Finally, to you and whoever..

I Introduce you to ME.

Proud of what I've been through and the story these scars tell..
For I am ready for the FUTURE.