The New Blog

Its been a while since I've blogged..
So many things to write about..
So many feeling needed to be unleashed.
Sometimes I feel like I need to be more of a man.
Sometimes I feel like I need to make major adjustments for the future.
I am fortunate to have a father who cares as much as he does.
And a supporting family as well..
But sometimes I feel like im the "last chance"...
Like im the last chance that WE can make some money.
Stress.
Pressure.
What if i fail?
What if I become nothing more than the average?
What will I..wat will WE do?
Im smart.But not as smart as my mother will brag about.
I know my flaws..and weaknesses..
Im not as smart as people think.
I just have more common sense than the average person.
More self control..
So I guess that sets me apart.
Life seems to go by so quick.
Only allowing u to learn AFTER shit hits the fan..not before or During.
Which is a sad story....

Its time to get the ball rollin..

Truth: In It's ILLEST Form..(Somtimes)

Sometimes I dont want to be here.

Sometimes I think of things I should'nt.

At times I just wanna escape to a different place where my existence never took place..

To most I live a life of joy and laughter.
TRUTHFULLY, its just a cover up..

I smile to bring forth other smiles.
?Sadly? But unselfishly I'd rather see another smile before myself.

Sometimes I feel abandoned.

The most important people seem to disappoint me the most.
While strangers constantly try to impair my happiness I seem not to budge nor notice..
But when a supposed to be"stationary" one steps one foot to the slightest amount out of position,
a bright light glares so hard it burns my eyes

Unable to understand reasoning, I cant help but to want to break down inside.

At times it seems like friends arent what they are labeled to be.
Deception and unloyal traits are starting to show.
True colors are slowly but surely making themselves vividly apparent.
Envy from the one's around me makes me question how we got this far in the 1st place..?

Sometimes...

Sometimes I feel like the one person who's job was to prepare me for things all of a sudden gave up..
Sometimes I feel like the one person who said they wanted to love me just decided to one day leave me.

Emptiness without a path to follow I STILL continue.

Seeking out a higher power in order to fulfill some calling that I feel buried deep inside of me I give up everything I have.
I give up trying to find an answer and just begin to deal with my problems the best I can.
Hoping that at the perfect time, a break-through will occur.

I've never in my life been suicidal
But just more less thoughtful about if my space I've taken up has been appreciated..
Do people truly care?
Or do they just pretend to?

Only time will tell...

Until then I can only live off a reality that tells me to keep pushing.

This is only the Truth..This is only my beginning...

Just One Night..

If I could ask you for anything,
It would be one night with you..

One night to give you everything you've EVER desired.

I'd Lay your body down and begin to memorize every molecule u possess,
Navigating with my tongue as my compass.

Then Slowly, I'd touch you in every place that I feel needs to be "especially" examined..

I could be your personal Doctor,
I'd whip up any potion and apply it to you to make you feel better..

I Can be your pesonal trainer and work your body until your dripping wet
Then go a little harder until you collapse..(ii hope you dont fire me for that))

Or I could be your Personal Diary,
OR You can just tell me things that you wouldnt tell a soul..
I wont be rude and judge you..
I'd Just listen...

On this One Night I could be your DopeBoy,
And give you all the extacy you need
I wanna get you higher than you've ever been before..
You can inject my love directly into your bloodstream causing you to quiver and shake uncontrollably
exposing you to combinations of the most beautiful sensations

Orgasmic rhythms are the only ones I tap my feet to.

Care To dance with me?

On this One Night I wanna take you everywhere you've never been

Destination 1: "Space"

We can bounce along the stardust
Drifting Slow..Or fast..It's all on you..
I wanna give you a "Cosmic Combustion"
So intense that you cant help but to see the *stars*..

I wanna take you to the highest point so you can remember me the next time (if any) where your capable of going..
Only with me can u visit this wonderous place..

In Just One Night...

I'd like to set you free from all your worries outside this room..
Everything that brings you away from happines
Everything that puts your smiles on hold

Everything that makes you happy....Can I Be?

Let me ask you a question..

Can I have THIS "One Night" For You & Me?

Mr.Know-It-All

1st off it goes like this.

I know things.

I know things that you may not even be aware of.

I know about things I havent learned about yet because I could probably figure it out if I ever encountered such subject/topic.

Sometimes (all the time) I feel like its almost impossible for me to be wrong.

How can I be WRONG if your Never right?

How would YOU know if you finally possessed the CORRECT answer for this/that specific question?

I base things off probabilty..

The probabilty of you debating with me and proving me WRONG is substancially LOW.
In all honesty you'd be better off trying to stop a freight train with your Head.

ii Know, iiKnow..
This guy'z one of those...

No.

because "THOSE" would'nt stand a chance in finding TRUTH over me.
Trust me I know where the TRUTH usually likes to hide..
So they'd look like "YALL".

I've been told that people can be wrong,
and this is true.
I COULD be, But so far I've been pretty satisfied with the outcomes of alot of arguments and debates.

Ok, i'll let you in a little secret.
I've only been DEADnWRONG about ONE thing....

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C'mon now do you think I'd actually Tell you what it iz though!?