December 26th,2008.
I was gonna try to just take this Christmas and get used to it without getting emotional but truth remains that it was entirely too different..
Being without you is the hardest thing in the world right now.
I wake up everyday with your face imprinted in my mind.
& to wake up on that special day knowing I couldnt call you or just hug you was unbearable..
Everyone I know was with their families and waiting on food to be prepared by their moms when I sat around there wishing I could just SEE you .
I heard some of my friends complain about not getting anything but it just doesn't add up to me. The greatest gift in the world would be for you to just BE.
Here. With me .
It's so crazy cause I can't help but think of how happy you made us when Christmas came..No matter if u had it or not u made all of our wishes come true because you did whatever it took to put smiles on our faces..Thinking back, those were the real miracles.Lord knows we weren't ballin but u couldn't tell that to the outsiders lookin in..
Mama, I don't wanna make people feel sorry for me.
I just wanna be able to live my life without u the way you would want me too but I just don't know how..Everytime I look in the mirror,everytime I hear music,everytime I laugh I just see YOU..
I know your lookin down on me or whatever y'all do up there..
Jus be patient with me Mama...
Merry Christmas mom.
I Love you forever.
IceRogerZ
2 comments:
Man pat, damn i wish there was somethin i could do or say to make things brighter for ya, but just keep pushin babe!
this was real & thats whats up..u gonna be alrite homie trust & believe u me..
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